white horizon

she is losing herself
lost inside an abyss of confusion
trying to grow up
yet stay the child that’s trapped in her heart
her soul is blind
stumbling around reality
lost between who she was and who she will be
her mind slowly shuts down
blocking everyone out
a fake smile smeared upon her lifeless face
an ocean behind her eyes
damned by her stubborn pride
her heart slowly beats less and less
strangled by the claws of emptiness
its vibrant red slowly turning to a cold hard black
salvation seems so far away
yet teases her endlessly
the numbing of truth is all she feels
the ledge seems to be the only one who understands
it offers solutions
but they are more complicated then they seem
the white light is there across the horizon
promising freedom at the cost of everything
her eyes are tired; they slowly close
her heart is heavy; it sinks below
her body is still; waiting for it all to end
she hasn't given up
she just doesn’t know where to go
the ledge is comforting
but she is strong enough to know better
she is waiting
waiting for it all to pass
when the tsunami of emotion finally ends its tyranny
she will pick up the pieces
and start a new
her soul will find its way back
and her heart will break through the black corrosion that consumed it
her eyes will be thirsty for the light of day
and she will walk once again
she will walk towards that salvation
and grab it by the throat
as if to make sure it never hides from her again
her stone cold face will soften yet never forget
but her tough skin will always remain
to remind her of the day
she almost gave in.